Aligned

This last week has been nothing less than topsy turvy.
I started to write a post last week about taking chances and leaps of faith and decided not to post it. To my surprise, God and the Universe smacked me in the face with my own words just a few short hours later. I've been presented new possibilities which are both exciting and scary at the same time. My heart has been telling me for awhile that something is just around the corner, something huge and new. After the past few days things are finally settling into my mind not so much as fanciful ideas but quite possible realities. I've managed to keep my head about me and the excitement minimal as nothing is ever promised to us; however the sheer idea of new endeavors makes me giddy.

Along with this, I think the universe is also trying to get me to look past myself. Friday evening, I found myself smack dab in the middle of serial killer weather, headed south and stuck in traffic for two hours. I thought about turning around several times and just heading home in such miserable weather when all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball on the couch and drink hot chocolate while watching a movie I've seen a thousand times. But I pressed on. I made it to the party. Just moments after arriving, I knew that I was exactly where I needed to be at that moment. It was nice to be around a real family that exudes love for one another, celebrating friends with yummy food and good wine. That night as I drove home, my mind went down a really odd path, but in the end I came out feeling much better about things. I realized most of the time in life, I'm my harshest critic. I deserve a lot more than I give myself credit for and most of the time I live in the isolation of my head. When I think about death (and I do), the actual event doesn't seem to bother me, it's not knowing if I'll be remembered. I mean sure, the people I love the most will remember me and my insanity but - will anyone really care after a few years, if I died tomorrow? And then, I have evenings like Friday night which remind me that there are good, genuine people that truly care about me, that I don't necessarily see in my daily life that want the best for me because they love me. When that finally sinks into my head from time to time, I feel like the luckiest person in the world.

I think what God is really trying to teach me this year is that I'm not alone in this life. In all of my life I've never laughed to the point of exhaustion or cried myself to dehydration as I have this year. Despite the twists and turns, smooth and bumpy roads, or the lack of "family" that any of us might have, we are so incredibly blessed with the people we have in our lives. "Family" is who we make it whether it's blood or a bond that surpasses it.

This year as we enter the season of thankfulness, I can't think of anything I'm more thankful for than the people I have in my life. I'm surrounded by some pretty incredible individuals who are smart, funny, witty, sympathetic and empathetic. Those who will roll up their sleeves and kick someones ass for me without batting an eye or tell me when to pull my head out of my own. Those who will be by my side in an instant. They are my support. They help me be a better me. For that, I'm grateful.

As my horoscope informed me this morning, I plan to rigorously figure out my intentions, formulate my desires impeccably and express myself precisely.

:The Next Big Adventure:
On Sunday, in a stroke of genius - a plan was hatched. Timing seems to be on our side and things are falling into place. The next big trip will hopefully take place this up-coming spring with two of my favorite people, in an adventure of EPIC proportions. When I think about it, my mind gets so overwhelmed that my body's only natural reaction is to instruct my eyes to swell with tears. THAT'S how much fun this will be.