Rocktober.

I'm not sure how it happened, but Rocktober just wrapped up another fantastic situation in a big red bow and handed it to me on a silver freaking platter. Last week went from mediocre to exquisite within a 90 second phone call last Sunday night. Plans were made, tickets purchased, costumes obtained. This Halloween was nothing less than spectacular as it was spent with some of my most favorite human beings. A calm balance returned to my soul when the tri-force of greatness was on the left coast at the same time.

It's a bittersweet drive home from the airport each time we all part. Singing hand-puppets, action figures and alcohol are a sure mix of hilarity, however that will take place no matter how much distance we place between ourselves. The hard part is knowing that I won't see someone I love so dearly and consider my family for a few more months. Not gonna lie, it's difficult to force back tears. All in all, we had a blast. I truly love being us. We. Are. Funny.


The last few weeks have filled to the brim with Tom Foolery, Hi-Jinx and Serendipitous events. Life seems to be answering questions, filling in the blanks of my mad-lib of a life and I'm strangely okay with all of it. In fact I say, "bring it ON!" with unparalleled enthusiasm. Things are shifting and changing and I'm stupid excited for what's around the corner. I just have to keep telling myself to hold on and ride it out. I've been through a lot in my lifetime and things always end up as they should. It's funny how life is a lot more fun when you throw caution to the wind and stop worrying. Good things keep happening. I'm not sure what I've done or what bank seems to be cashing my karma cheques one after another, but I'm thankful.

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Is it possible to love someone and completely DISlike them at the same time? I've learned that the answer to this is a resounding YES. This problem has popped up on me twice this year so far and it's really quite unsettling. At first I thought it was a lack of care, but upon further investigation - it's the opposite. Things wouldn't bother me if I didn't. It's a delicate balance of walking away quietly, keeping a silent amount of hope for them as individuals and leaving enough distance to not become rage-filled with annoyance by a single word that escapes their lips. I know it's a character flaw and it's something I have to address, I just don't know if I have the energy to tackle it yet. But it's definately on the list.